Well, has it ever happened to you when there are certain things you have to do but you're not able to for some apparent reason which you still haven't been able to figure out. This might have or not have happened with everyone of you out there, but if it has,you know what I am talking about. Well, there is a certain thing I have been wanting to do for the past 4 years almost but I just have never had the guts to just go ahead and click the send button on my e-mail. Its not that I don't want to do it. It's just that there's no point in digging out the dead and trying to make one live through something that is not even relevant anymore. I would not want anyone to do that to me, and I assume the same for others..... And since I haven't been able to send you the SORRY you deserved, I am posting the mail I had written to you in my blog. When, and if ever, you read it, you'll know its you I am talking about.... I don't want you to think I am taking an easy way out, but I also don't want you to have to go through all that again... Here's the apology you always deserved and the mail I had written for you... Wish you the best with everything you do... There's the e-mail you would have had if I would have had sent it to you !!!!
Hey,
How have you been ??? Its been ages since we last spoke. How are things with you - I hope everything is as you hoped it would be. And this is completely out-of-the-box kinda thingy... Don't be alarmed or shocked... Though I know this is completely random. Well, I do not have the exact words and I do not know what exactly I am supposed to say. Actually, this is not at all relate-able to the present and has nothing to do with anything right now. I do not know how meaningful and how logical or stupid it is of me to come up with it after all this time, but I have always wanted to do this, only that I have always been a wuss my whole life and I never had enough guts to say it to you. Well, this is totally irrelevant right now and I do not know what I am doing... I do not have the correct thing to say and this is not the correct time or place or not even right I guess... Anyhow, I hope you still remember that you had asked me out once during our last year in school, and I was very immature in the way I acted. So, here it is - I AM SORRY. I know this does not make any sense or any difference, and I hope it is no more important to you and that you do not even care, I really do. But I never apologized for what I did. We were friends for so long and you let me know how you felt about me, and all I did was write back to you and I did not even have the decency to talk about it or at least explain it to you. Rather, what I do is I send you a letter through someone else's hand and then, never speak to you again. I am not trying to remind you of the past and I am not trying to come clean. I am sorry things did not work out, and I am sorry for acting the way I did. I was only a kid then, and I know this does not make my actions any less than they were. I was never ready for anything like that, but I should have been man enough to tell you the truth the way you deserved to know. I may have hurt you, and if I did, I want you to know that I am extremely sorry for it. I am sure you have moved on and found better things in life. I was wrong in the way I acted and so, I am sorry and its totally understandable if you don't even reply. I wish you the best with everything you do. And I truly hope that if ever we come across each other in the future, we would not turn our backs on each other and at least say hello, if nothing more. I wish you the best for your future !!!
Still amateur,
:D !!!
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